Let’s see who’s over 18
She’s the type of girl that can be so hurt but can still look at you and smile
On the days that I want to give up, I cry and feel bad for myself. But I never want other people to feel bad for me. At the end of the day, I tell myself, god picked me to have diabetes because he knew I could handle it. He must think I’m pretty strong. And you know what, that’s what Type 1 Diabetes is. Being strong.
The pain diabetes bring upon us isn’t, if you think about it, the injections or the trauma. The most painful thing Is the loss of time. Time you could have spent drinking your favourite drink, time you could have spent not feeling absolutely shit because your 2.8 mmol and even moving is taking all your effort, time you could have used to make your life more fun and worth living. Diabetes is in my opinion worse then heart disease. The reason why its worse then death itself is that you have to deal with the constant fear of death while simultaneously trying to live a life.
Unlike other kids, I have to check my blood sugar 8 to 10 times a day; everything I eat is measured and every carbohydrate counted. My kit goes with me everywhere I go … Too much exercise or not eating all my food can be dangerous. I think I’m too young to have to worry about all this stuff.
I am always so tired. Tired of the shots, the counting, and the restrictions of what I can eat. I just want to not have to think about numbers all the time. But if I ever did stop? I have too many people who would be disappointed and hurt by that. So I keep going and going until I feel like breaking. It feels like a never ending uphill battle that no one I know can understand, no matter how hard they try.
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